Authentic Being
The world is shaking. There are rumbles and sometimes explosions as our bellies remember truth.
The vacuity of previous incarnations of spirituality and materialism have holes in them so large we can fall through.
Culturally, and often spiritually, we have been indoctrinated to be child-like in our passive consuming of the dominant models and received truths. The prevalent schools of spirituality have long been patriarchal in design, and the predominant models are ones of transcendence, where we are called up and out of our bodies and this earth realm.
The heart and soul show us the real core of coming to this particular planet lies in embodying on earth - not to transcend, but to awaken and bring every molecule of awakened Presence into body and action.
As the Divine Feminine returns to a nascent evolving balance, we can awaken to limitless Being and be fully feeling, grounded and bloodied, intuitive and sensory Beings with an umbilical cord to the pulse of Gaia and the Cosmos, and our third eye firmly pressed to the Creator.
A thirst towards authenticity is rising in increasing numbers of people. More and more of us are attending to our long-suppressed guts and devouring realness in more mature doses across our encounters.
As the human collective stumbles through transformational gateways of activation, one after another, the dances of the Cosmos are never far from awareness. Yet, as we open to the limitlessness of our true nature - as timeless and multi-dimensional Beings - our grounded purpose in human form is to bring All into embodiment in this Now. This is the home of our profound authenticity, in living as only we can.
When heart and mind blast open, through the veils of illusion, and we awaken to Truth, there are infinite paths which can call to our passion. There can be a tremendous, long-overlooked thirst revealed. This demands to be met, yet holds many false avenues for a soul that may still be immature and ungrounded in the Being. The person(a) can still so easily take charge, simply clothed in apparently more appealing garments.
For many of us, there may be many months or years where our lust for all things spiritual may become all-consuming. This can simply shape to be another escape from reality itself; from the bliss and agony of tasting and knowing, Truth and Life lived fully. No exits.
With unmet conditioning and the waves of spiritual programming, it is so easy to be pulled into an idea of being more evolved or awake than our family, friends or neighbor. And this is one of the sticky and subtle ways ego simply morphs.
Grounded spirituality invites us to awaken to all it means to be the Divine in form. Transcendent states are not of greater value than learning kindness and tolerance with our families. If there is any pre-existing inclination towards dissociation, it can be appealing, and even dangerous, to disappear into meditation or spiritual practice, and forego our groundwork of lovingly, tenderly excavating our wounds, trauma and shadows.
At the beginning and center of our awakening journey home to Love is the stirring, de-armoring and discovery of the authentic essence of the heart. This includes a stage of developing discernment that unearthing a lifetime’s unmet emotional pain or giving unrestricted expression to every emotional wave is not the signature of the awakened heart.
Our emotional heart also gets to ripen in maturity as it reclaims innocence and freedom of our golden child, whilst being parented by our own inner Divine mother and father. This trinity is the gateway of the spiritual heart.
We practice, not flinching to the agony, but melting into it. No different than dissolving into the bliss. All of it is in our cells, our DNA, our non-physical essence.
To the extent that we identify with any role, and give that value, we invest in the egoic self. We must move through many layers of purification and initiation to strip away the personal, the distorted and the false emotion, to even begin to taste Truth.
And yet, and yet, it was always Here.
It is always available.
It never left.
We just placed awareness elsewhere.
As we taste the Truth of Being - indescribable, inexpressible consciousness - anything that attaches language or form to this is immediately a limitation. No matter how poetic or magnificent.
The mind perpetually moves to make things complex. Language comes through the vehicle of a human being and so still has mind and therefore concept. Rather than just Is. We can only give words as pointers in the direction of the ineffable and to illuminate the obstacles to truth.
The deepest passion running through all great artistic endeavors could be said to be this call to express the inexpressible through creative energy.
“Whatever you have understood you are not.
Spit it all out.
Whatever you understand is not the truth.
Throw it overboard.
Do not try to catch hold of any concepts and cling to them.
Don’t employ any words but look at yourself as you are.”
~ Sri Nisargadatta Maharaj.
Spiritual evolution is actually about profound simplifying. It is not as complex as our thoughts and ego will repeatedly draw us to believe, yet it is far from easy. It is important to remember all happenings are not personal. They may have been lived through in personal experience, but they no more belong to the individual identity than anything can. In the unravelling of personal identification, there is a discovery of the essential unchanging. We are literally vehicles for the Mystery to explore, to balance, to evolve.
One of the ironies of Life as a human is that we believe what we believe, in that moment. We cannot know what we do not know. Whatever our state of consciousness, that is our reality. Until we know different.
It is those very thoughtforms that create what we experience before us. Each story we crack through drops us in greater unknowingness. And the more whole-souled our surrender to the Infinite, the greater the dissolution of what we have recognized as “life”. Everything that is not reality must die, again and again.
Whether we create circumstances of misery and tragedy or of abundance, we are continually emanating in tandem with the formless That which evolves All.
There is omnipresent wordless communion. Nothing is unseen. Not our darkest thoughts, most shamed places. Nor our kindest actions.
We exist in the holograph of the multiverse, continually vibrating between formless and form.
Life is watching, breathing, stretching and simultaneously just Is.
The ability to develop Presence may be micro-movement to micro-movement, sometimes literally for one breath, but as we commit to not abandoning our self, we strengthen, we deepen, we come home.
As the beating heart, we expand into the Infinite that is, then breathe All That Is into and through this form, through Presence, creating, word and deed.
There is a dawning knowing and realization our absolute core priority is to be our authentic Selves. The more each of us can embody the light, love and beauty we inherently are, all elevates, all transforms.
This is sovereignty. This is authenticity.
In discovering our Self, we will be different and messy and glorious, and it won’t look like any of our egos would wish it, but it will be true and real for each of us.
We have the invitation in this earth play to fully celebrate the uniqueness of each of us - putting down judgment, attempts to control, shape or change “other” and just reveling in the multitude of mirrors of Love.
In you, it may not look anything like it does for me, but you can feel your own truth. There is a flow and freedom and joy that can be inexplicable at the logical level when we say “yes” to Life (which we actually are) moving through us.
We did not incarnate to be anything, nor to become. We Are This.
And That is part of the great Cosmic joke. We have nothing to prove, nor earn. Nothing to redeem. Nothing is real. And everything is.
Our truest compass lies in the silence, with the awakening Divine heart. This is not the emotional heart, but the Sacred Heart, the Christed center of Love that resides in every Being. And this Heart calls forth and guides, both the purification of mind, and the essential opening and landing in the belly.
Each pathway of remembering and unforming-in-form is unique, with both jewels and pitfalls. No other can judge or appreciate how the unrepeatable expression of essence in form that is each One is called to wholeness and the evolution of All.
Is the butterfly that takes weeks longer to hatch from the chrysalis any more or less than its fellow butterflies? Any more or less deserving of existing as a perfect expression of the Divine than a human, a waterfall, a star?
Let us turn our nakedness to the skies and lay it upon the moist earth. Authenticity just waits. It opens in a moment. And it is lived footstep by footstep.
No one has to see it or recognize it. No one has to “get us”. Be the one that really gets you.
It is our own soul that falls in love into the pool of Being and the deep tasting of itself as Divine.
~ This piece is from my first book “Coming Home” . I will occasionally share longer excerpts here and if it touches you, the book is available on Amazon. It is an intimate and powerful collection of pieces over a ten year period, a companion guide to living awake as love. How do we bring together our Divinity and human-ness and live the most whole life we came for? A second book is being lived and written, along with a book of poetry.
~ My lifelong experience and dedication are in waking up and walking in this life, eyes and heart open, feet on the ground, connected to the stars. In other words, to come home. I guide in the incredible journey of embodying awakening and living in full-spectrum authenticity and facilitating group meditation and transformational events and one to one work.